Have you ever felt like you and God needed couples counseling? I know there have been times in my faith journey when it would have been helpful. I know that even more after reading an amazing book by Susan Isaacs titled Angry Conversations with God: A Snarky But Authentic Spiritual Memoir. Isaacs shares her personal journey with God with wit, honesty, and a refreshing realness that shares her struggles with God – struggles to which most of us can relate. Work. Purpose. Relationships. Feeling abandoned by God, and hearing a friend describe faith as a love story, Isaacs decides to take God to couples counseling, “because we’re not getting along.” This book resonated with me so strongly that I couldn’t put it down – even when I had to get up early for a trip to St. Louis. Isaacs creates such a brilliant and hilarious picture of the beauty and delight of a living relationship with God. Even in the fighting, the frustrations, and the silence she makes you long for God. I’d rather be fighting and frustrated with a living God who passionately loves me than be obedient to an impersonal god. And this coming from someone who craves peace in life.
Here’s a great quote from the book:
I thought I was over him! So why did my heart still rip? Why did I still feel this sorrow? I got this strange sensation that God was with me. And he was angry. He was very angry–not at me and not at Jack. God was angry at the pain I was going through. I wondered if that was why God hated sin, because of the destruction it caused. For a moment I felt awe for a God who loved me enough to hate the things that hurt me without hating me for causing them.” ― Susan E. Isaacs
I walked away from the book with two significant feelings and challenges. First of all, it truly created in me a desire for more intimate conversations and moments with God. I just wanted to be still. No agendas. No requests. I wanted to chill with God – in a hammock, with a great breeze, no conversation. Okay, maybe an occasional one-liner from God about Pat Robertson or cheesy Christian merchandise. But really, I crave to delight more in the Lord and talk way less about my desires. Plus, I laughed. A lot. Isaacs is hilarious and very real with a dash of irreverence. (That’s code for “she sometimes uses words my mama told me not to say.”)
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